pink

i painted my fingernails pink
and imagined you underneath that shining enamel
imagined seeing you between the short shorn off ovals
imagined that you didn't have to work tonight didn't live in another city weren't ignoring me like you'd had your fun and were now moving on
imagined that i was scratching you
hearing you groan as little pink stripey welts appeared
imagined kissing those welts away

i knew that you could seduce away my resolve to resist you
seduce away the anger
because all i had to do was remember the things that you'd already whispered in my ear
cock that's harder than it's ever been
and all of the things that still make my clit spasm
so all i'm left to do is revel in small pleasures like clean sheets
and the lingerie you and i were supposed to buy
and the heartbreaking pink kisses
your eagerness to touch and taste
that i don't know will be repeated